Monday, May 2, 2011

Another grey day

Anyone looking for a cross stitch post turn back now. Just thought I would explain my absence in blog land, if I have any online friends left that are still reading someone please give me a much need kick in the butt. I have been a horrible online blogging friend lately. I haven't been posting or reading any ones blogs. I'm not even going to pretend to go back and try to catch up on the over 500 posts that I need to catch up on, going to try to start over today with reading and commenting again.

I need to stop my pity party that I've been having and get back to living my life the best I can. To make a long story short, when I went for my 6 week postpartum check up my Dr found a unknown lump. While I waited and fretted for opening at the hospital for day surgery, I've seemed to have spiraled into a heck of a depression. So I've had the surgery they have removed the lump and now I wait for the results. I haven't told anyone yet will wait to see what the Doctor has to say, I have a horrible feeling though. I feel like I'm being punished or something. I seem to have lost all faith in everything, it feels like I'm going through the day in slow motion. So please forgive my lack of activity in blogland and with my online friends, I sit at the computer and stare cause I have no idea what to say at the moment.

17 comments:

  1. Oh Crystal - ((hugs))
    Will write an email - talk soon!

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  2. You are one of many who have been in a blog slump but your friends are still here ready to listen, pray, and be there with you through it all.

    Don't let depression take hold. Fight back. Blog, vent, share....you are not alone.

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  3. Oh Crystal honey... I'm so sorry to hear. Sending you lots and lots of hugs. It's ok to take a break from all the blogging and stuff to give yourself time.

    When will you hear from the doc? Will be keeping you in my prayers and I hope you get back great results.

    How's Sam's colic?

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  4. oh crystal ((HUGS))) being sent your way .... we will still be here when you feel up to posting .. chill try and relax ... easier said than done I know.. if you want to squeak email me love mouse xxxx
    mouse_stitch3@yahoo.co.uk

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  5. Sorry to hear you've been having such a hard time. A mother's emotional health if often a little delicate after a birth (she says speaking from experience!). And having a physical problem just makes everything seem 10 times worse.
    Just concentrate on your new baba and yourself. So many of my New Mum friends try to do too much too soon, just cocoon yourself with your loved ones and don't worry about your cyber friends. We will just chat away amongst ourselves and welcome you with open arms when you feel ready to share again.

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  6. Take care of yourself and i hope and pray that the doctor has some good news for you.
    Hugs Yvon.

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  7. Don't worry about blogging , you have enough on your plate . Fingers crossed for good news from the doctor . Take it easy . XXX

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  8. no no no...sending hugs to you and keeping you in my thoughts...

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  9. You have every right not to be feeling upbeat; please keep us posted. Meanwhile, you're in my prayers.

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  10. Hang in there and think positive thoughts, it could be nothing, your body has been thru a lot the last year. You know where to find me if you need to talk and remember I am here for you.

    Sending prayers and happy thoughts your way.

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  11. Please don't give up the faith. We will all have positive thought going your way.
    My prayers are with you.
    Teresa's Heartfelt Stitches

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  12. Hi Crystal, I'm sorry to hear that things aren't the best for you at the moment, but please don't give up, have faith. Positive thoughts do have a way of helping the situation - will send thoughts of happy positive thoughts to you and will send a msg to the Angels above to look after you.

    Try and stay positive and enjoy your beautiful baby boy :-)

    Lots of hugs and happy thoughts

    http://firefliescatsinthegarden.blogspot.com/

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  13. Hi, Crystal. Keep your chin up!! Think positive. Will be thinking of you. Sharing your worries can often help.

    (((Hugs))) to you.

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  14. Hugs and prayers being sent. And don't worry about catching up on blogging. It will be here when you're ready. :)

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  15. Crystal, you have NOTHING to apologize for! Life happens and this is a serious life moment for you. I've been there so I'm here if you need to talk. Waiting is the hardest part, believe me! I'll be thinking of you. ((((HUGS))))

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  16. Try and keep positive Crystal, we are all sending prayers and love your way for good news xxxx

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  17. I am just at the end of my successful battle against the big C,so if you want someone to talk to, email me.

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